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[15 Jun 2007|12:02am] |
This summer has been really awsome. I went to emilys pool party and if was fun even though only about 8 people came. Then lately ive been hanging out with david alot. We went to some really cool park by the river and just sat and talked for about three hours. Hes a good listener. And he has alot of good things to say too. BUT i really do miss hanging out with my friends. Emilys at horse camp though, and sarah lost my number. And well i dont have very many friends. But i really wanna hang out with some of you kids badly. Any tiem starting next week? I reallly wanna see the rad surfing penguin movie thats coming out. Lifes just been amazing now, i finally am getting what i want out of life.
Byyyes.
PS charles i miss you too.
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[30 Dec 2006|09:57pm] |
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I really thought that all of this was going to be a lot easier.
i really wanna talk.
But i know you guys have heard it about a million times...
Sarah, i miss you, come home!
Erin.
I miss you. Stop living in highland heights.
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[13 Dec 2006|03:48am] |
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Okay. So today. Really boring. I woke up late, so i came to school looking like shit. =[
Wednesday- I get to go to church. And i can sing again so that will be fun <33
Friday- ME AND EMILY ARE GOING TO SEE RENT!!!! YAYYYYY! Im really excited that makes me happy =]]
Saturday- Hm. Im might go to scotts if anyones actually goin. Comment if you are.
Sunday- Chorus concert. At 2. Come and see us. Cause the treble chior is awwwsome =] Pleeease. Are dresses are all nice & tight& sexy lol.
I want to go snowing/ sledding really bad. I havent been this year.
Due to the lack of snow and it actually sticking.
Gabby. I wanna hang out. Soon.
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This night, walk the dead
In a solitary style
And crash the cemetery gates.
In the dress your husband hates
Way down, mark the grave
Where the search lights find us
Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor
I miss you, i miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Back home, off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
So i won't stop dying, won't stop lying
If you want i'll keep on crying
Did you get what you deserve?
Is this what you always want me for?
I miss you, i miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
I miss you, i miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
I miss you, i miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Made it so hard
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down
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[07 Dec 2006|02:40am] |
Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses
And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses [x3]
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[04 Dec 2006|03:22am] |
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Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
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[05 Nov 2006|05:07am] |
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Im sorry i came in and ruined your perfect life.
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[04 Sep 2006|02:54pm] |
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i dont know why but im feeling differnt latley. I dont know why. I spaz out almost all the time over the littlest things. And its almost like somethings wrong with me ya know. I dont feel very socaible latley. I just kinda want to hide under my covers . Ive also been doing alot of deep thinking latley. And i dont know maybe its been good for me. Or maybe it hasnt. Im not raelly sure what.. but somethings differnet now. I odnt kow what its just like differnt. And its werid how a couple bad thoughts can ruin your mind set. Somedays your just not sure what to do anymore. I just like cheering people up and making them happy when there all sad ya know . But for me theres really only a few people that really understand me. Like all of me. All me and my multiple personalities you know . And i doubt that anyone realy likes me and ALL of me. you know? Theres only one or two people that gets it anymore
So im just done
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[03 Sep 2006|09:31pm] |
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Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Summertime, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down, and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me
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Im so fuuucking paranoid outta my miind.
Dear god do you know how much you scare me?
im fucking freaking out.
Everyone right know Knows im a spaz
later.
im off away
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[14 Aug 2006|08:35pm] |
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Im eating a peice of celery. I thiink its the most crappy thing in the entire world. It taste bad. But dad says i have to eat something today... and since celery is mostley water. I decided to eat that.
Anyways. This morining my bedroom door got stuck and i got locked inside. So dad had to like knock the door down and take out the handle. Haha. So now... i dont have a door. Akward... lol but he says i can paint it. The front has to be white. And he said i can paint the back whatever i want like design wise and everything. As long as it doesnt reference to anything bad like sex or drugs or anything lol.
Anyways today has been kinda peaceful.
Despite the moody momentes.
lol gabby just reccomended me zoloft.
who knows .
Comment if you love me.
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[12 Aug 2006|12:43pm] |
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Yesterday was really fun! I went and voulenteered down at newport for this health fair thing for low income familys and stuff. Lol it was fun. Little kids are SOO cute. Then I went over to emilys with sadie and david came there right as i was like shaving my legs lol that was funny/ then me sadie david em and charles went swimming at emilys dads house And we played Jenny robinson and played chicken. Me and david won. Then charles got on top of me.... and it was akward lol. Then everyone but sadie wanted to go to the carvinaval so we dropped her off and me charles emly and david went to the carnival and i swear we almost got raped by this guy on the merry go round. Ahhh that guy was sooo weird. yes last night was fun
Comment if you love me!
I havent gotten any in forever
I feel neglected.
<33
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[08 Aug 2006|09:46pm] |
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So today was orentation. I realized that im not gona be all by myself and i have a few classes with kate evan amy and christina. SO im not totally alone ya know. I saw evan for the first time today in nearly a month in a half. He looked really lonley over by himself so i went over to give him a hug, and to get him to come sit with me ryan and david. It was good to see him finally. To goof off and make sure hes actually okay.
Then i went to the preschool and voulenteered for like seriously five hours.
I like fixed up the room and painted a bit.
Idk i like helping out
I like it more when the kids are there
Ha little kids are funny.
Then i went out to eat. And honostly i dont like the taste of meat anymore
I think its terrible.
lol not quiet sure what to do about that.
Anyways.
Until later <3333
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[03 Jun 2006|08:48am] |
FRIENDS ONLY CUT
Sorry. I HAD to do it. Ask why later. IF i didnt add you dont comment to be on. I didnt add you for a reason...
All those who i added I <3 you .
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[01 Jun 2006|03:22pm] |
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well today has not been good. Very boring. lol IDk but it gives me time to sit back and think you know? I dont know if there is any thing to think about really. BUt everyone is like OMG were FRESHMAN yay! Im not really that excited about it. I dont really think its that much of a big deal. I mean do you remeber when we were in 5th grade and we were all SO excited to be sixth graders and then sixth grade just kinda... sucked. :/ I mean isnt anyone else a little scared about highschool or is that just me being weird again? Maybe it is? Idk.. comment with your thoughts .
Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are.
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start.
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[31 May 2006|07:08pm] |
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Today was the last day of school. I really dont know where Im going to high school 50% chance highlands. LETS PRAY!
I liked my red shoes today. Sadie didnt but thats ok i am used to her making fun of my clothes and stuff. YAY two dollar shoes( thanks for the loan kate)
So summer plans?
Geogria and NC in july and anthonys basic training graduation. Im trying to loose weight. Like just ten. I lost 30 last summer so i guess we will see where that goes wont we !
_Love_
Katie
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[30 May 2006|08:09pm] |
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6 months today. No big deal. It doesnt feel like any different day so i really dont care all that much. Actually today wasnt good at all.
Sadie - You are a BEAUTIFUL girl. Dont fret over guys they are worthless. Dont care what you look like, because do you really want a guy who just cares about your looks? Hell no. Dont worry. Dont go looking for love love will find you. Someday. For everyone.
Go ahead and talk bad about me. Hurt my feelings. Dont feel sorry. If it makes you feel better to put me down and talk about me idc anymore. Really i dont care what anyone thinks. If they judge me and think im a whore, then go ahead they must not know me that well and they musnt be good friends to me then anyways.
Well i am actually kinda happy. I talked to my dad. AND i AM getting my nose peirced for my birthday . YAY
_love_
katie
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[29 May 2006|11:27am] |
As the end of your school year is coming to a close, fill out this survey according to all of things you have accomplished...
((--LOVE--))
-Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend & how many.
Yes, 2 ej and scotty
-Have you fallen in love?
In love right now
-Get dumped?
No.
-Get ditched?
no
-Been harassed by someone you once had a "thing" with?
Well we never went out but .. kinda yea
-Broken up with somebody?
yes...
-Met someone you can't live without?
we call him Evan
-If you have one, is your bf/gf your best friend?
I have alot of best friends but he is my absolute best
((--SCHOOL--))
-What school did you go to?
HMS
-Was this year the best year so far
It was the best AND worset
-Did you change cliques?
yes i did and i am so glad i did
-Fail a class?
nope
-Hate a teacher?
Everyone except MRS ROLLIE
get in any fights?
alot
((--FRIENDS--))
-Gain any new friends?
Lol all my friend ARE new friends i love them
-Lose any old friends?
A ton but there are like three that i have kept
-Get in a fight with a friend?
Yeah
-Told a friend you loved them and meant it
I love all my friends but not in that way
((--PERSONAL--))
-Lost a family member?
yes physiclly and emotionally
-Get any taller?
unfortunalty NO
-Know someone that graduated from high school?
Yes
-Gain any weight?
no i lost some and i am trying to lose more
-Cut your hair?
yea
-Changed hair colors?
i had blue streaks and now my hair looks black
-Discovered a new talent?
idk
-Hug more than 3 different people?
Yea
Tell someone "i love you" and meant it?
YES
Went to a fair?
yup lol
-Did something you werent supposed to?
YEs
-Kept a secret from your parents?
alot
-Dated/"talked to" someone you wish you hadn't?
SCOTT
-Hated someone of the opposite sex?
Yes
-Discovered something about people in general?
yes
-Saw a kiddie movie at the theaters?
NO but i am making evan take me to over the hedge
-Spend most of your year watching tv?
No i actually watch it anymore
-Read a book?
yep
-Sat through something boring?
Yeah.
-Drove a truck?
no a car
-Stolen anything?
earrings and a shirt
-Skinny dipped?
Not this year
((Post this as "[the grade u are in] grade Year))
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[29 May 2006|11:12am] |
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People can be strange sometimes. People change. Both good and bad. Good. The annoying little class mate you had in fourth grade. The one you ignored, you thought was weird and annoying. But then you grow up a little bit, and about four years later you realize how to become friends and that he is still weird. But it’s a good weird, the kind of weird that gives you butterflies in your stomach , and then creates more butterflies when he tickles you tummy and gives you a raspberry. You love him. Then there is the bad. Just over a few months one of your best friends changes, in a bad way. I have changed to but I really don’t think its in a TERRIBLE way( is it?) You realized that she used you, taking adavatage of your friend ship. You always forgave her, yet she came back and did the exact same thing she apologize for. So you drift a part as she lies straight to your face. But that’s ok. Cuz you realize that everyone changes and sometimes its not always for the best but they do and you cant stop that. Your just going to accept that. I love my friends, and if you change bad or good, im going to try my BEST to be there for you cuz I care. Idk why im just sitting here. Thinking. And its good .
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[28 May 2006|08:34pm] |
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Well i had to get a new LJ because yet again.. my mom hacked into my other one. She wont to this one though. i swear... anyway this weekend was really crazy. I went thrifting with kate and emily . That was fun. BABALO is my elephant i love him. But it kinda buged me that whenever they saw something that wasnt an xs they said o katie can where that. And emily held this skirt up and was like are you a size 10. im like no... im a three. And idk the way that she thought i was a size ten kinda bugged me. I mean do i rreaally look like it. Then we hung out at the leve with kate emily ej ethan ryan and david. You guys im really sorry i ruined that night. I just got scared you dont understand... I think i had a panic atack but thanks for taking care of me. I love you.
also... thank you ej for getting my LJ fixed
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